Blind Curve Ahead

First published on Wednesday, April 4, 2012 at 6:25pm

Bethel, a friend from the other side of the globe wrote me and asked one question I avoided these past weeks--- for it just make me feel uncomfortable. She said: "forever na ba mo diha sa Manila or after schooling lang?" I smiled at the word "forever".  

School Year 2012-2013 is the last leg of the three-year track my husband opted for a program that leads to an MA degree.  Meanwhile, I'll finish mine on the first term. God-willing, we will graduate together in March of 2013. I know that Rueland is earnestly seeking the Lord about this. But chose to be quiet for now. Sometimes I would do some prying or give some hints that obviously annoy him. Oh, the corrupted Eve in me! 

Where is the next stop of the journey? Scary thought! Not really the "where" per se, but its implications. I wish I have the answer now. I wish I can answer my friend specifically.   

Guess what? Someone up there was touched by this woman's restlessness! As I was typing my reply to my friend, God just brought to mind a song that speaks of one's desperation and just allow God to go before him.  It is the same song that Bethel and I used to sing together in church and in youth camps. Down the memory lane, I chose to trace imprints of His grace and mercies. And then told myself,  "Hey, isn't it too late to doubt now? ;-)

How clever the Father is!  First, He refreshed my memory with my commitment to follow and obey Him. Then, He assured me that He is God eternal and unchanging--that is His commitment to me! And as if to nail down His point--- He gently rebuked me that for a wife and mother who is under the authority of her husband, there is no other way to go but to be still and know that He is the God who called my husband-- He will be our portion here on earth and in eternity.  Such awesome way of loving by our Heavenly Father! 

So... my action point from hereon is: No more prying or giving of hints. Just sing! ;-)

Lead Me  

written by Steve Taylor

Lord, I'm through trying to take the upper hand.

I never knew, but now I think I understand.

On my own, wanting it in black and white.

On my knees, things are in a different light.

Chorus:

Lead me along the path.

Lead me along the winding way.

I trust enough to never need the why if You'll take me to the where.

Lead me along the path.

Lead me along the winding way.

I don't know what's around the corner Lord, but I know that You'll be there.

Lord I'm through wondering what lies in store.

It's up to You, You've never let me down before.

Bubbles burst when I'm the one who knows what's best.

When You're first, I'm never gonna second-guess.

Bridge:

Helpless alone

Blest be the ties.

My point of view points to You

You've become my eyes.

In case you would like to check on this song, found a nice video of it. Here is  the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZBvGAM5641g 

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"I trust enough to never need the why if You'll take me to the where."